Evan is 3 weeks now   I can’t belive that much time as gone by!  He is already changing.  His little face is chubbier, and he only now resembles the little person I met at the hospital.  Bringing him home and getting settled into my new role has been one that I have loved.  But to be honest, I think I’ll be ok with going back to work for a couple days a week.  I hope that doesn’t sound bad.  I love him to death, but I think that having a few hours away to not have to worry about him might be a good thing.  Josh and I had a date night on Friday night for the first time since he’s been born.  My parents watched Evan while we went to dinner and to a movie.  It was like hitting the refresh button.  When I got back, I couldn’t wait to get my hands on that sweet little face   At the hospital, the thought of going back to work and leaving him for any period of time brought me to tears.  But we’ll see how I do in a couple of weeks.

Today I was playing with him in his room and he started to get fussy and cry a little bit, so I pulled him close and started rocking him and singing “Jesus loves me” while sitting on the floor.  I moved us to the rocking chair and just sat there watching him sleep.  It was the best.  I swear every time I look at him my heart swells up just a little bit more.  I am just so proud of him and every time he hits a little milestone, (he smiled at me on Sunday!) I think to myself “My baby is a genius!”

Being the mommy to this little boy is the best thing (besides Josh) that has EVER happened to me!  Maybe I’ll go watch him sleep again… just for a second…